Sometimes it is just lovely to shut oneself away from the world for a few days and to enjoy the peace and quite of ones own company. To be alone with your thoughts in your own private world. I decided to say on in France for a few days after my husband flew back to London on Sunday in pursuit of work and the all illusive salmon in the Scottish highlands. It seemed so quiet after he left and initially I felt lonely all alone in our apartment. How to amuse myself? First a good clear out of my wardrobe as I have just enrolled in Project 333 – Living with Less (if you want to find out more click on the link). I proudly took bagfuls of clothes to the charity shop this morning. The remainder of my summer linens have been washed, ironed, bagged up and stored ready for next year. The flat is scrubbed and cleaned, even the windows sparkle in the unforgiving sunshine. Yesterday afternoon I watched a fascinating documentary on the life of Grace Kelly on French TV. Good for my french, glorious photography and oh how beautifully elegant she was and those amazing outfits. Watching daytime TV is something I rarely do of an afternoon, it must be something to do with the Protestant work ethic.
Another experience I am aware of is how feminine the apartment has become, not just the lack of socks to be picked up from the floor more a sense perfume, manicure and make-up as I have time to experiment and throw away all those old colours that no longer work. The hours stretching in front of me to do with as I please. No set agenda, eat, sleep, watch TV and blog of course.
This whole experience got me thinking about the difference between being alone and enjoying your own company versus feeling lonely. I know that when I lived on my own for eight years in the mid-nineties there were many times when I often felt lonely, especially when the children were away at school. Yet sometimes one can be surrounded by people and still feel a sort of loneliness. I fall somewhere between introverted and extroverted. At times I like to be gregarious and love being with people but once in a while it is relaxing to be able to re-charge my batteries and be comfortable in my own company . Life can be so frantic and fastpaced with so many demands on our time and energy. What do you think?
|Contemplating life in the early Autumn sunshine of St. Tropez|
Got up early this morning to visit the market in St. Tropez back in time for my yoga class. Now off to buy some provisions from the local grocery store. Something simple and quick to cook so that I can continue for a few more days in my little cocoon like a fluffy Persian cat stretching and luxuriating in the late summer sunshine without a care in the world.
There is always Skype and facetime if I wish to connect to those I love. I am off now to have a quick Skype. Till we meet again in this space.